it's heavy as i never have imagined!!!

shout that burden out loud!!!there's nobody who listens to the meaning but the noise you make..not a reason to be thrifty about...

cevap- august 30

the cloudless night was the only acquaintance
waiting for the unpredictable possibility
this time everything seemed not to matter
his nostalgia of her was that which boosts his esteem
to cross the synapse of right and wrong...
not to succumb the insurmountable thought of gaining her devotion
yet not a word..
not a sound..
not a sight..
not a single drop of water to drink from his empty water container
an expedient way to reduce the mania
compulsion to an immediate profit of a hard-to-get smirk over the situation
until an answer
that changed the world to a complete summer from fall
came an off beat
not along with the suspense
it was like everything may end that very moment
everything except the bond which tied their drifting affections
while his was as certain as an accurate circle
she had to thriftily spend the enormous emotion she's known for the second time
but it was as distant as a light-year
he never complained
he longed with all the confidence in the world
that the hindering wall between them be smashed into reality
one day will it happen
one day in the most optimistic belief it will ripen
and they will be set free from the bondage of irresponsible social norms
content in their hearts will dwell
proud and wide
their hands firmly held each other in love...
and geared the long path of a destined rapture...

noc- am endorsement

mapungay ang mga matang may malaking utang na loob sa kapeng lumamig sa kahihintay sa labing hindi magawang ngumiti

lumilipad ang isipan habang nagbabasa ng bulok na kardex

bakas ang mga ugat sa kamay dala matinding aktibidad ng maputlang dugo

kumikinang sa langis ang mukhang pinuno ng tagyawat

nagpapanggap na nag-iisip ang kokoteng blangko naman

di mapalagay ang mga daliri sa pagalaw

naghahanap ng disposisyon sa mga nakakalat na chart sa lamesang dugyot, di napunasan

nakabibingi ang tunog ng hand dryer at bulungan ng AM shift

nakatutuwang pati ang sarili ay panggagalingan ng hindi maintindihang lumalalang iritasyon

huminga ng malalim

nag-aalala sa gabing darating na magdadala ng parehong kapalaran

kasabay ng pagpasok ng mga bonggang supervisors ang ingay ng kumakatok na bantay, pang-umagang hininga at 3 pesos para isang basong mainit na tubig

iniisip na baka masira ang ulo sa mga nangyayari

pilit na pumikit at sinubukang limutin ang lahat

sa muling paglubong ng araw ay may totoong ngiti

at ang lahat ay aabot sa isa pang makulimlim na bukas

lahat sa ngalan ng swabeng lunas

sungad

when things go busy and every condition go in favor with your comfort

when you feel like there's never gonna be an end in everything that's going

so you forget and learn to grow calluses in your emotions

to consider not a fracture of someone's happiness

you may have forgotten some promises that you uttered but it has stained his expectation and is waiting

well love has something to say

that i will not change in my opinion in the first proposition that i loved you and i still do

that this compulsion brought by my longing to grasp a piece of your heart so smooth in taking mine

will always be there

but somewhere in he middle of the run

you may change your mind

i dont care just do it

you may feel its dullness

cause it has become usual to you

i wouldnt think of a chance that i'll spoil this love i expect not to last but im enjoying till you give it up

that i will not regard any matter to intervene my yearning to one day take a real glimpse of you

despite the distance

in spite the odds

when all else fail

i would be dauntless to stay

for you

young and free you should treat your heart

cause though i've taken a grip of it

i never have considered it mine at all

totally yours plus my guarantee- as determined as im still awake this late just to see you

i've nothing more to say

but i love you..

please stay the same

haboni mayo

pAid out a day-oFf in an aBominable 500kg laUndries in gloom...i avAiled a SunShine and anOther mOnth long wear and wEar process...",

NOC-a-loca

yesterday i realized i need not be uttering words at times to better feel how deafening
life could be without expression;whether good or bad..haven't earned enough valor to move about for a verse until this line..

7:30am

i love telling stories..i don't believe them myself, but the smile they could bring others...