curyoso

is there enough courage to pursue this love
so sorry that we instituted it and yet it's so hard stay
my heart has never changed loving you but has been filled exuberantly
each time that passes is a time of deep longing for your embrace
but this unbreakable wall of difference sets our blamelessness apart
i feel so hopeless of the uncertainty of our togetherness
even then i'll always be here waiting for you
i guess ill just see you when we finally cross the road of emotional diligence

about to end

so that's the all of your cowardice
to myself i state this
for the day has ended and all the maxims were not played
for all the expectations have made you smaller
and your heart is pounding in illness
there is nothing that touching at all
it has been weeks of toil in your struggle for averageness
shortly saying it is not as worthy as anything in your clouded mind
and since there's an aberration in the way you think
should you continue it would truly be an obligation to the public good
therefore let the error and maleficence be corrected
so your moving be smooth and innocent
to contribute to the soundness of someone's slumber
the night bids to quiet your troubles
be calm and ready to face another day of equivalent doom

because you are special

you never have heard from me
you never have felt anything i did to break your ego; say it even you're such an unacceptable kind of being as you really are beyond your consciousness
i'm a neutral person or let me say an indifferent one to my own decision
it is such a shame you just broke my trust on your worthlessness
you just proved that you really are someone who deserve a gift of democracy
that i should by this moment retort towards your abuse of your right to react
react on a matter that doesn't even concern you since you are special due to retardation
i pity you for being not aware of your despicable ways
i should say more but my emotion will burst to more humanistic phrases
...that even so awful and abominable may create me to be 1/100 equal to your rotten immorality.
now you just have had it

the variety of colors

if you know nothing but criticism
if you know nothing but denying the fact that really exists
if you can't accept that you do something that you know is a general practice but is considered a heresy by the so called standard men- men who are not even in line with their words
if you are somebody who just believe because you are told so
in short i'm asking if you're a proud hypocrite or simply an airhead
i'm appealing to you to face the reality
and stop turning your table on ME
cause you are the ODD
sad to say you're alone and i'm wrong in using the word since you think there are many of you
i wish that you progress and learn to smile!!!

kokarca flavored

when things go busy and every condition happens favoring your comfort

when you feel like there's never gonna be an end in everything that's going

so you forget and learn to grow calluses in your emotion

to consider not a fracture of someone's happiness

you may have forgotten some promises that you uttered but it has stained his expectation and is waiting

well love has something to say

that i will not change in my opinion in the first proposition that i loved you and i still do

that this compulsion brought by my longing to grasp a piece of your heart so smooth in taking mine

will always be there

somewhere within this doomed affinity

you may change your mind

not a care do i have

you may feel its dullness

cause it has become usual to you

i wouldnt think of a chance that i'll spoil this love i expect not to last but im enjoying till you give it up

that i will not regard any matter to intervene my yearning to one day take a real glimpse of you

despite the distance

in spite the odds

when all fall short

i would be dauntless to remain

young and free you should treat your heart

cause though i've taken a grip of it

i never have considered it mine at all

totally yours plus my guarantee as determined as i am this unpunctual at 4am.

think twice

evrybdy dies!!!so w8 for your turn!!do 8 yourself den that wud b a crime against ur norms & the society..lol..lets live lyf wit fulfilling thngs around..help and luv dat's the point. if u lose u win at doing 8.if u succeed dat's it.in any place, in any situation, at any momnt in lyf, 8 is a strugle 2 make d living worth 8.4 those havng d ideations, mind u,u'll wish 2 liv longer 5 minutes b4 u die i promise..bleah(",)

here again

back to life!!!
people just need some break
to realize what have already been there nonetheless were missed
to see the essence of the mundane matters in life that in time have gotten insipid
there is an uncertain path yet to take...
i'm giving mine a firm embrace..

it's heavy as i never have imagined!!!

shout that burden out loud!!!there's nobody who listens to the meaning but the noise you make..not a reason to be thrifty about...

cevap- august 30

the cloudless night was the only acquaintance
waiting for the unpredictable possibility
this time everything seemed not to matter
his nostalgia of her was that which boosts his esteem
to cross the synapse of right and wrong...
not to succumb the insurmountable thought of gaining her devotion
yet not a word..
not a sound..
not a sight..
not a single drop of water to drink from his empty water container
an expedient way to reduce the mania
compulsion to an immediate profit of a hard-to-get smirk over the situation
until an answer
that changed the world to a complete summer from fall
came an off beat
not along with the suspense
it was like everything may end that very moment
everything except the bond which tied their drifting affections
while his was as certain as an accurate circle
she had to thriftily spend the enormous emotion she's known for the second time
but it was as distant as a light-year
he never complained
he longed with all the confidence in the world
that the hindering wall between them be smashed into reality
one day will it happen
one day in the most optimistic belief it will ripen
and they will be set free from the bondage of irresponsible social norms
content in their hearts will dwell
proud and wide
their hands firmly held each other in love...
and geared the long path of a destined rapture...

noc- am endorsement

mapungay ang mga matang may malaking utang na loob sa kapeng lumamig sa kahihintay sa labing hindi magawang ngumiti

lumilipad ang isipan habang nagbabasa ng bulok na kardex

bakas ang mga ugat sa kamay dala matinding aktibidad ng maputlang dugo

kumikinang sa langis ang mukhang pinuno ng tagyawat

nagpapanggap na nag-iisip ang kokoteng blangko naman

di mapalagay ang mga daliri sa pagalaw

naghahanap ng disposisyon sa mga nakakalat na chart sa lamesang dugyot, di napunasan

nakabibingi ang tunog ng hand dryer at bulungan ng AM shift

nakatutuwang pati ang sarili ay panggagalingan ng hindi maintindihang lumalalang iritasyon

huminga ng malalim

nag-aalala sa gabing darating na magdadala ng parehong kapalaran

kasabay ng pagpasok ng mga bonggang supervisors ang ingay ng kumakatok na bantay, pang-umagang hininga at 3 pesos para isang basong mainit na tubig

iniisip na baka masira ang ulo sa mga nangyayari

pilit na pumikit at sinubukang limutin ang lahat

sa muling paglubong ng araw ay may totoong ngiti

at ang lahat ay aabot sa isa pang makulimlim na bukas

lahat sa ngalan ng swabeng lunas

sungad

when things go busy and every condition go in favor with your comfort

when you feel like there's never gonna be an end in everything that's going

so you forget and learn to grow calluses in your emotions

to consider not a fracture of someone's happiness

you may have forgotten some promises that you uttered but it has stained his expectation and is waiting

well love has something to say

that i will not change in my opinion in the first proposition that i loved you and i still do

that this compulsion brought by my longing to grasp a piece of your heart so smooth in taking mine

will always be there

but somewhere in he middle of the run

you may change your mind

i dont care just do it

you may feel its dullness

cause it has become usual to you

i wouldnt think of a chance that i'll spoil this love i expect not to last but im enjoying till you give it up

that i will not regard any matter to intervene my yearning to one day take a real glimpse of you

despite the distance

in spite the odds

when all else fail

i would be dauntless to stay

for you

young and free you should treat your heart

cause though i've taken a grip of it

i never have considered it mine at all

totally yours plus my guarantee- as determined as im still awake this late just to see you

i've nothing more to say

but i love you..

please stay the same

haboni mayo

pAid out a day-oFf in an aBominable 500kg laUndries in gloom...i avAiled a SunShine and anOther mOnth long wear and wEar process...",

NOC-a-loca

yesterday i realized i need not be uttering words at times to better feel how deafening
life could be without expression;whether good or bad..haven't earned enough valor to move about for a verse until this line..

7:30am

i love telling stories..i don't believe them myself, but the smile they could bring others...

COPD

sa sabOROso nga sud-an
ang kananam sg sabaw kg sinugba nga isda
tam-is nga kalamunding kg aslum nga patis
wala sg mAkapugong,kabangdanan sg Manug-tunda nga kusinero
nagmala ang paminsaron sa kada pagtilaw
malasaw nga gbi sa malapuyot nga pag-amigohay..

half of the world to you-SPRING

such a lovely name for such an exquisite woman
i saw your eyes and i was like melting on my sit
your nose your lips
everything visible was just but so astonishing
i left..
i never expected something but i never have forgotten your eyes
then you unbelievably came to see me
for you it meant nothing but..
my heart depolarized like i had a 4-hour cycling deprived of ceasing
i know it was foolish
it was pathetic to think so absurd
spend a daydream thinking of someone like you is like reaching Everest unsheathed
it was out of the question..
yet it happened
the next thing i caught a glimpse of..
we conversed similar to that of trusting someone long been known..
i wish you really did
cause it touched me sincerely outright
it thrilled me beyond presumption
joy that Ive not felt for quite a long while..
then the more i learned of you,the more i grasped..
you are but more of definition than the stretch i can spend my job
never thought you'd remark my illogical ways
i just couldn't equal it with anything..
that first moment we talked was like a solstice except your name",
i never would wanna miss it...
it'll be gone though in a while,i insist..
ill just contain this hope you'll stay invariable
we may not set our eyes on each other but i..
certainly will see you each time id smile
such a moment i can arrest your picture
stare at each fabric of its beauty until it fades
there are a lot more things to yet say..
this measure i robbed holds me back to life
my apology for writing this..
my time to leave..

way up north cut short

Who would foolishly say there's gonna be me in this road.
Thinking of it not as it is but a memorial of a walk which has marked my heart "endorsed".
To it i have signed with all my heart and trust me there's no way i could correct it 'cause ultimately it's certain.
What's the point of the first premises then if it wasn't for this with- sense -seeming thoughts i entertain.
Now I'm empty taking the course of premature discernment.
Having no idea whether or not it will come that she'll stay the same.
The old meeting place must be dead silent this very moment,
'cause i wouldn't dare get there without her.
Nothing left but fragments of unforgettable past all done...
Intangible happiness.
Who has a huge amount of courage to complain.
I'm as negative as the sunset.
The sky is getting darker and calm.
My bike starts to sound like i need to fix it..
I'm turning back to go home and take some time for myself..
Leaving all these thoughts yet to be answered...

tomador

sigeha pagid nga panigarilyo. demalason kagid sa ubra mo. hamal sang mantikaon nga baboy samtang gatumar sang baratuhon kag makahulubog nga ilimnon. gapula nga mata. galibot nga kalimutaw. traynta minutos ang nagligad, indi maributay kay mala na ang botilya. ano pa kundi makuot sa gausbong sa baho nga maong-duwa ka semana mo gin-usar sa konstraksyon. nadiskurahi sa lima ka piso nga sinsilyo kaluoy sang nobya m nga my bulawan nga paghigugma. ugaling ang ilimnon ang imo apin sa ini nga tion. bugana ang salig sa hunahuna nga inspirado sang katamaran. sa kataposan naakseptar mo gid man. ngtindog ka kag nagsuroysuroy sa tadlong nga dalan. dugay ang sirena sang my kabalaka nga drayber. wala kagid namati kay wala gali may naglaygay sa imo nga untatan ang nasagamsaman nga kananam sang kalibutan. subong ari ka sa tubang sang tanan.. may gakadlaw, may gahibi..gakaon sang malas-ay nga pansit nga wala gd nakapadumdum sang kalip-ot sang kabuhi nga wala mo ginhalungan. maayo nga paglakat sa imo..

80 year old recall

you may not remember me everyday we meet.
yet every point of time i conceive of your presence is a sight of perfect joy
simply because you are special...truly special
my daily earnest cares you may consider vain banking on your temporary appreciation
still to you i owe my purpose..
to you i owe each smile..

early morning expectorant

he hid himself amid the orchestrating emotions. no one could ever figure out that which is said to be vain in his own definition of ideals..everyone else has to be different against his. his heart can't help but beat and express that which he really endures beneath the fact. fact that he's still longing, dreaming that one day in his arms will lay again those warmth of love. love that has been coerced to bloom at a time not even norm would permit. it wasn't fair, not even fun, rather surely would cause an arrythmia..
he can hear his own, writing his life in an empty future. to fill gaps, to confabulate missing memories.. a war of hearts and minds the song says, in expense of possibilities. each offers different kinds of smile.who says it's his or not. it's getting broader.. nobody cares as nobody should..
now situation cals for a change of view. to set aside and sacrifice the philia of getting oneself into the pit of his own mischief. pandora must have gotten most of the blame, now she's spared. beyond this is his own device of will. an autoimmune disease of reasoning that engulfs oneself. realization will bring peace..
the sun is out but in his eyes is light. that gloomy-seeming morning is yet a summer of complete retreat.

ulitin m nga

now thinking seems like one of the most
torturing thing to do
so i preferred be a time-bum
waiting till its time to move
my eyes took the right to avail the opportunity of being the most important sense of the moment
can hardly find green leaves in the busy streets of puerto
grasped glances of many eyes, they're not staring at me
but i thought of it anyway
birds are singing and i can't hear any
i pulledoff my earplugs but there was nothing in my ears
no, not a schizo
i grinned at it
at least i know which part of the script i should react
a spank on my head intervened the delirium
to it address my utmost gratitude
i moved my fingers like i just went out from a doze yet it was
now i'm wearing the widest body language of euphoria..

valiumania

yes, it pays to wait.. at some point, we don't have to induce our lives beyond comfort to stay congruent with our narrow perceptions..there are a lot of things that come naturally yet would truly appeal to that which go along with the so-called "ought -to-be"; and reaching the peak,we'll realize it was just fitting that we spared a bit of patience..such conditions may pertain to a job, an event, a sunset, or a love.life is so wonderful!!! God made it for us..(",)

tuod man..

..kanami sg ulan
nghatag sg lamig sa kaudtuhon
ang mga tanom gatiskog kg gagreen kay narejuvinate
gapahuway ang mga pispis sa wires sg kuryente sg PALECO
gatulo ang dew sa ila nga smooth and silky feathers
makalilingaw himutaran ang gray nga sky
ang mga stewdents bg-o lg ngpuli kay nghipos na ang sin
amat-amat gatukar ang mga salakyan kay mamasada na
dugay pa ang 2PM po dw matupa nko sa duta nga gadalagan
ngfade ang indi masaligan nga clouds
subong ngreset ang life from mono balik sa stereo
mamukad sg nagligad, implikasyon sg dalum nga paginhawa
salamat gd sa ulan nga ngpautwas sg bug-at sa dughan...